Ditzy N The Boyz: June 2009

Very rough one, got off work at 6 am, picked up Bear, came home and he was just not feeling quite right. So we just hung out, me, Bear, and Xander while Bear was kind of a terror watching a movie when my phone rang at 8am. It was my boss asking me to come in at 10am. So I took the boys up to my mom's house because Kev was sleeping and has park patrol tonight, and went in, and I got terminated. Just a little piece of paper saying I was not longer employed there and "Refer to Baxter County Personnel Policy Section 9E.4 if you wish to request a grievance hearing." So I know that because I live in an "at will" state they don't "have" to give me a reason they let me go I still asked. They weren't saying. Just that I had the right to the grievance hearing. Now I have read about this grievance hearing and I don't really know that I WANT one, just because it almost sounds like you have one to get your job back. I really don't know that I want to try and get back a job they just fired me from. BUT I DO what to know WHY. I just don't really understand why I don't get to know. I mean if I really screwed up then tell me. If I wore the wrong color shoes in, tell me. I understand that I could be let go for some pretty silly reasons with this "at will" thing but MY worry is that perspective employers will call them and they will share their reasons with them and I won't know about it and those perspective employers will not hire me for reasons I don't know. Does that make any sense to anyone but me?!? I have a friend who worked with me in another job. She was let go. Given the option to quit before she was fired I believe, it has been so long ago I am not even sure maybe she just put in her 2 weeks and that was it, anyway it was all health related and they were really stubborn about not working with her on her issues which was really silly because she was REALLY REALLY good at her job!! ANYWAY she found out later she was having trouble getting hired because that employer was simply telling perspective employers that if they were given the opportunity to hire her again they would not. No explanation about the health issue making it impossible for her to work within their arbitrary rules. Just NO. I found THAT very harsh. So THIS is just really hard. I have to say in comparison to other times I have been terminated, I can remember 3 of them, yup Stellar I know, this has to be the hardest to come to terms with because I don't know WHY, but the easiest because I just simply was "sensing" something coming for a while. Not so much that I thought I was going to get fired. No that was a pretty big shocker, but I knew change was coming and I had been having some weird stay at home mom dreams, and weird work scheme dreams and as much as I don't lend a lot to dream/prophecy I think this time around I was prepared a bit. Now if only I wasn't so hung up on this stupid WHY! Of course I am freaking out about getting my Resume updated and looking "right", filing for (and I fear being denied for) unemployment and assistance, like ARkids for my children to have health insurance because OF COURSE today Bear has a 103 degree fever. Yes God I am listening, I just don't obviously know what you are trying to tell me. Is there an interpreter in the house???? Oh yeah and I couldn't bring myself to put pictures on this entry. Nothing seemed to really work. (Oooo that was a BAD joke)

So, I got off work this morning with a plan. A MISSION! We headed to the grocery store to get Vanilla Pudding (Sugar Free) and Food Coloring so that me and the Bear could make us some Finger Paint and make some messy painting projects outside before it got too hot today!! Sound like fun?!?!

So, I mix up the Pudding, and OMG it was fun to mix up, even with a screaming toddler chasing a cat at my feet, (Remember that cat is a FAT cat that takes up A LOT of room!) and I had lots of fun making the colors!!

Then out to the front step/porch area to start being creative....and here are the pictures I remembered to take!

What did I forget, You wonder? Well the finished product of course!! I didn't take ONE DARNED PICTURE of the finished product! LMAO! We had two finished canvases! Oh and he enjoyed eating the paint/pudding WAY more than painting with it, and walking/sitting in it more than playing in it with his hands...and trying to walk around in it while sliding all over. We were BOTH covered in paint! It was GREAT! Next time we need someone else there to take pictures so you can see ALL the fun!!