I don't want to think, just sleep....

Here I sit at work, waiting for my night to end. 2am seems so late when you are sitting at home with nothing more to do than entertain yourself but when you are at work it is just achingly WAY too far away from 6am to really feel late enough! I was planning on blogging about something interesting and funny, but alas my brain has frozen in a holding pattern of thinking about sleep. I have had day dreams about night dreams. I have closed my eyes for a second and tried to pretend it was hours worth of sleep. Today was a 4 hour sleep day, spread out in incriments. So before this is more nonsensical nonsense, I will just stop writting and come back when I have had some more rest and write something brilliant. Ok ok, something cool. Ok OK just something better than this. My boys are both testing me today too, Bear hates to be dropped off at the sitter. Xander thinks that there is no reason why he should follow the rules and is in trouble. Again. He just had us thinking he figured it out. He figured nothing out. I feel like such a failure as a mother sometimes, but I know it will look better after I have actually gotten some sleep. So....four more hours of work and then I go pick up my baby and then I pray he will be sleepy so mommy can sleep. Does any of this make sense? Does it matter?